Wednesday, April 27, 2011

His Baby Story


Even though I felt all along this boy would hold out a little longer than the girls, when it boiled down to it, I was surprised to go past my due date. My doctor scheduled an induction for the next week and assured me through my reluctance that if we waited beyond that, there would be other complications.

Tuesday night was uncomfortable. But by that point, most nights were uncomfortable. I had washed all our linens that evening, so thought I had exerted myself and that was it. But at 6:00 a.m. I got up to use the bathroom and was, uh....a little wet. Just enough to make me call triage but not enough to soak through to my bed, whew! Clean-up crisis averted. Justin was already at the hospital, so I gave him a call (and was given instructions to HUSTLE), then made the calls to arrange for the girls.

I think I was feeling about every emotion on the spectrum at that moment. Stress that my house was drowning in a sea of laundry, disappointed that I would be coming home to that, absolutely ecstatic that I got to experience this hectic morning and avoid the induction. Then as I drove myself into the hospital, all the nervous, excited, anxious feelings that come when you are in for such a big day.

The hospital was packed, delivery rooms were occupied, and after a few hours, they started preparing the triage room for the chance I might just deliver in there. Everyone was apologetic, but I was just thrilled I was getting the staff I wanted (we'd been checking out the call schedule for a few weeks!) My OB (who rarely delivers anymore, she just does prenatal and c-sections) happened to be there for a surgery and dropped in. I think she had something to do with getting me out of there and into a great room. At the time, I honestly didn't care, but it was nice to be out of that clinical triage room. Then she spent the afternoon in my room, waiting and chatting with us. It was so fun to have her there for the delivery.

As for the delivery, I'm not sure what to say and where the story crosses into too-much-info-for-a-blog-thanks! :) It was incredible, I loved it. So, sooo much work, but incredible. This hospital uses a significantly lower concentration of epidural drugs than I've had before and it made for a very cool experience. I felt present. I don't know how else to describe it. I loved experiencing delivery this way--a lot more sensation but never crossing into the realm of unbearable pain.


Then he was here. And as drained as I was after all that work.

Sadly, I don't recall my emotions at the time. I honestly think I was too tired to take note. His head had been a bit turned and the cord was wrapped and holding him back. Everyone in the room was making weight predictions of high eight or nine pounds by how long it was taking. The little seven and half pounder was just in there a little crooked :) But I do remember wanting him in my arms, wanting to look over every part of that little body. And not wanting anything to distract from those plans.


I let Justin take the lead on naming Bennett this time. I was pretty bossy about the other ones. We had some great friends in college (the Bennetts...obviously) who we just adored. It's been years since we've been able to see them, but Justin brought up the name again a few months ago. We would toss around other names, but both kept coming back to it. So Mr. Bennett it is!


Abbey fell in love right away. What a fun age for her to have a real, baby doll. She was looking at his fingers, noticed his hospital band and asked "How much did he cost?" I said, "I don't know, what does it say?" She rattled off the 15 digit code on the band--ha ha! Pretty pricey! Hayden was very curious about his toes and set to making sure all ten were accounted for.




My family circus :)

I think I'm one of the few people who never wants to leave the hospital. Time stands still and other life distractions are gone for a bit. We got home around lunch time and the kids were already a little off from having me gone for two days. Hayden spilled an entire glass of milk she insisted on having without a lid; J looked at me, my eyes started filling with tears, and I mouthed, "Take Me Back!" That's so funny to think of now that the hormones have calmed down! Maybe it is that I'm not expected to be back in the full swings of life quite yet, but things seem to be going just fine. I am loving this little boy and he is getting all the affection he can handle from this household of girls. Towards the end of the night, J will say, "OK, I'm taking my turn now, give me my son." Love this family we're starting.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Brand New


Bennett Justin Pace
Wednesday, April 13th
7 lbs 8 oz

We're getting deserved flak for not posting pictures and in some cases, informing loved friends and family, of our new, beautiful son. Son. That feels strange to even type.

I feel like we are just keeping our heads above water to make Bennett feel welcomed and secure in our home. Every minute not spent doing that is spent making sure his two sisters feel secure in our growing family. Let the juggling act begin!

He is a wonder to me; such a perfect, healthy, beautiful baby. And his arrival could not have been more ideal. Details to come :)

Saturday, April 2, 2011

It's About That Time


...thirty-nine weeks...

Despite my efforts to slow down time, life and pregnancy are racing forward; this is happening! My mind is in a power struggle with my body. I keep telling him, "It's nice in there, it's warm in there. Stay a while!" But my body likes to remind me it is time and gives me a nice strong contraction every time I exert myself. And by exertion, I mean picking up a toy, buckling a kid in a carseat, or sneezing. The kids have kicked it up a notch as if to tell me, 'you have no business bringing another human into this house.' Message received. Too late now, folks.

When I feel overwhelmed and under-excited, I go grab his sweet little layette set from my hospital bag. A real little person! A real little person is coming to our house! It's exciting to think about meeting the little guy who's going to be a big part of our family.

The bag is packed, camera batteries charged, babysitter on speed dial and two back-up plans in place :) My nesting is manifesting in two ways this time. First, I want to get rid of everything! I hope I don't regret those bags and bags headed to the Salvation Army tomorrow. Second, I'm crocheting like an addict. For some reason it has helped my worry and anxiety about this more than anything. Maybe something about the repetitive motions, or the feeling of getting something accomplished when everything else these days takes so much energy. More than anything, I think it is my way of welcoming him to our home. I don't plan to be induced but tend to go early, so ready or not, here we go!!